Friday, July 31, 2015
It's interesting of course, all those people spilling their lives on the timeline.
Learning so much about people. How they act and respond, what they post. It's become the voice of the world, speaking poetry, videos and images to all of us.
It's like the news, but not like what you see on the the television,
it's personal, waaaay more personal, the poetry of people lives
The stuff that they allow you to see and hear,
its very psychological, what gets liked and what doesn't
and of course the marketers are watching you, like always,
and people throw tantrums and say they are leaving it forever,
and some of them do,
those who have pasted away
yet the people who are threatening to leave i see them on there mostly every day.
of course it's like a form of reading minds, seems like we are moving that way in the future. A machine that can read your mind, can you believe that?
I'm still out of touch with the masses, Facebook confirms it.
My mind works differently than most, i don't understand the politics of a Like, I suppose there are politics involved of course.
I don't live for Likes though. If you like it. Fine. If you don't. Fine.
That's the way it goes. The story of life on my earth.
Wednesday, July 29, 2015
America's Dad, The Cosby Show
it seem so genuine, but he was a fraud,
the show was as fake as could be.
millions watched it week after week
it set ratings, people looked forward to watching it every week
wishing they had such a family and home.
yet, the star of the show had issues of his own, which is alright with me.
But what was is not alright was him being some kind of moral police for the people. Talking about the kids with their sagging paints, and speaking in Ebonics
Meanwhile, he was putting drugs in girls drinks and fucking them.
which is alright with me. We all sin of course.
such wish some of us will quit casting stones,
so much, when they have a graveyard in there closet.
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
I know how he feels
not being comfortable in his own body
his own skin.
I feel that way a lot, been feeling this way,
for a long time
what can you do?
Drink, drug, commit suicide?
so many people feel this way, not loving or liking themselves
not feeling fee to be themselves
It's crazy that we can't be ourselves
all our chromosomes and genes forming a person
who will eventually be judged by some one else
so crazy, so stupid
It's an ugly world
Sunday, July 26, 2015
I related to her madness
she was my favorite singer while she was alive
she was a very talented singer, who sang
from her soul.
the words of the song meant something
to her, the experiences of a poet
not everyone can feel that
but a few can
when she was getting popular I was doing
open mic stand up comedy at the time
it was so hard, to have the courage to get up and make them laugh
there, I hated it!
I drank before I got on
a lot of comedians drank
I hated the stage
It sucked, I just wanted to write the shit
and get paid, that was it.
Then, I seen Amy, who was so brilliant in the studio and on the stage.
She had trouble getting on stage and performing in front of an audience. She had to get fucked up. Drunk and drugged.
I related to this. I thought she was stubbing her nose at the audience
I liked it, I had a problem with people who felt to comfortable in front of audience.
People can be dickheads, especially for standup and comedy shows.
My favorite comics drank heavily. To feel better and deal with boredom and anxiety of getting up there. I felt like it must have been the same with the rock dudes. Not really wanting to be up there.
Insecurites, Fear, Boredom.
The audience booed her when she fucked up on the stage. She forgot a lyric, fucked up a song they laughed. Made fun of the alcoholic drug addicted dope fiend.
That's what it is what like
I stopped during stand up, after a good friend of mine died after a terrible accident while drinking.
Amy was in the tabloids alot. The press seemed to enjoy it a lot. It was a big entertaining joke. The drinking and doing all the drugs to them
Then she died young
And all that stopped.
Thursday, July 23, 2015
IT made us
I look at men
and they seem so different
this one is tall, this one is stocky
this one is a hermit and the other one is
this one is good with his hands and is a mechanic,
the other verbally intelligent, and is a manager in some institution
One guy is playing a saxophone very well on a street corner,
another one is a great orator in a church
One kid is very tall and coordinated and dunking a basketball on a city basketball court
all these different varieties of men and women
so many to see and hear and learn from
so many different shades of God
so many talents and gifts
some of them practical, and others
unusual and strange
and no matter the strength or the intellect
some of them are lacking something, as I am lacking
I guess we all need each other really
for are defects, it's as if God said one person could not have
too many talents, so It gave them defects to compensate
or they would all be Gods
It's as if everyone is a part of a circle and it forms a whole, into ONE
but that's only speculation,
and people hate with you do that
Sunday, July 19, 2015
How can you channel something that you can not see?
that is electricity
for centuries people could not see it or channel it
if it wasn't for a few people
we would still be in the dark
i mean, there would be less light to humanity
the only light people knew came from the sun,
moon and stars at night
then someone came along, there were others that came before,
boy, does he cut a romantic figure with some from my generation
the stories about him are the stuff of legend, just google it
crazy mad scientist, genius loner, speaking to pigeons,
communicating with aliens from distant realms,
well of course you can't believe all legends, right?
Somehow I believe most of the Tesla stories though
dedicated and obsessed, alone
I can relate to this
and I'm nowhere near as intelligent as him,
yet, who is?
i go outside and think about a man sitting somewhere alone
at night, thinking of strange and unusual things
I relate to this
things other people don't want to think about
electricity is everywhere
i mean the guy made a 130 foot long lighting bolt, with one of his coils
he did shit that was something out of the imagination of Stan Lee.
Close to a real life superhero.
Can you believe this guy was asexual and celibate his whole life?
How come guys like this don't reproduce?
Well, if it wasn't for Tesla I might be typing this by candlelight
and the nights would be much duller
why this guy doesn't have a national holiday, i will never know,
But i do know if he never existed, the nights would be a whole lot
Mr. Electric Man
Friday, July 17, 2015
I mean, man how do I dislike that fuckin place
a lot of people say that shit though
and they are right,
we all love the low prices, the low fuckin prices
but the shit you gotta put of with, is it worth it?
to save the a few fuckin bucks?
it all starts in the parking lot and finding that damn parking spot.
ain't that messed up?
then getting into the store and getting raggedy ass cart.
you mean with all they money they get the carts can't be new?
and it's always mostly crowded, and all the fuckin walking
and bumping into people
and the lines long as hell
and the wait
wait wait wait
and Time is the one thing we always seem to be running out of
ass we rush on with our lives
Yet at Wally World time stand stills
I feel bad,
I mean i skipped school in college to listen to The Howard Stern Show.
Which probably cost me greatly. I would listen in the morning and forget about everything else.
Like school work and teachers and classmates all that shit.
It was so hard for me to laugh back then, and even laugh now.
Yet, he made the impossible possible.
This was how the Real World talked and not how my professors were speaking.
Sex joy and laughter. That made me feel good
I didn't have a car, a girl, or job or money
I was twenty years old at the time
and somehow he managed to entertain me.
and that seemed like a lot to me
at the time.
Thursday, July 16, 2015
and all that shit.
He was so important to hear as a child.
He wasn't saying what everyone else was saying
and was saying shit that ringed in my heart, so I know that it must
have be TRUE.
I was hearing lies from from everywhere
and when I saw his HBO specials
they were so fuckin enlightening
I wasn't reading books back then, so all i had was my environment
my fucking environment, and that shit lies to you, and Georgie
was telling the truth on HBO
you can say intellectual shit and be funny too.
No fucking way
But he was
He didn't a fuck
And I liked that about him
a poet in black,
fucking with people's head and making them laugh at the same damn time,
boy do i miss that shit.
Boy do I miss watching him fight,
these featherweights and middleweights
don't mean very much to me,
I mean, watching a Floyd Mayweather fight
is like sitting watching the lawn grow to me,
Why do people pay to watch his fights though?
But when I was a kid, Mike Tyson was around
and fuck was he fun to watch man
and he was small for heavyweight, not even six feet tall
and he did not give a fuck about a reach advantage at all
He just got inside and dismantled the opps
you didn't know how long a fight would last?
Usually they would be over with very quickly.
90 seconds man, no bullshitting
that kid hit very hard, you could see guys getting knocked
out with body shots!
and that kid was so angry, so angry
I mean how do you get so pissed off for an athletic contest?
He fought like it was a street beef
The fighters now, don't seem so mad
whether it's boxing or MMA.
They are prize fighters
But Mike brought the anger of The HOOD into the ring with him
and you could feel all that pain and frustration being let out in that
pissed off kid from Brownsville
and the public could not get enough
There's nobody like Mike
and fights are so very
Wednesday, July 15, 2015
Tuesday, July 14, 2015
I believe in the
Whatever the masses want
Comes into fruition
Some genius will create it
If we want war
We will get war
We don't want peace
So we never get it
What a great device
It seems as if we should never
Be bored again
And believe me
I know what boredom is
I have a degree in it
But with the smartphone
I can always be engaged in something
Its hard to get bored
U have so many choices for entertainment
It seems like too many
You can get on your smartphone
Whenever you are bored
And believe me there is so much
Boredom in this world
We bore ourselves to DEATH
I see people on their phones
Waiting for buses and trains
Even in the bars and restaurants
We are so bored
Very few people
Are where they want or need
Don't blame me
That is the human condition
We are stuck somewhere
Somewhere we don't want to be
So we get on our smart phones
And go some where else
I admire her surprisingly
I usually hate most things mainstream
She's pretty, and it's obvious she loves attention
Just started watching Keeping Up with The Kardashians,
And i am entertained!!
I am surprised
I usually don't like all the hot
Shows and number one Nielsen rated shit
That shit usually bores me to tears
As dull as the people who watch that shit
But you gotta admire Kim though.
Getting caught sucking and fucking for the world to see on video is a about as embarrassing as it can get
She could have retreated and hid somewhere, yet she came out fighting and swinging
Becoming richer and more famous
For sucking and fucking on camera!
Shit, i know strippers and whores who refuse to do that
So Kim i salute you,
You know you will be criticised and throw a middle finger to the haters
Fuck them or ignore them
She inspires me
As she should inspire
Saturday, July 11, 2015
Friday, July 10, 2015
Boy did this kid leave a strong
Impression on the world!!
He was with the shit
People still love him and idolize him
My generation will never probably forget him
They are all dead themselves
He was their man
And i can't forget the voice: powerful and strong
Can't forget the voice
Passionate and soulful
He made you feel his poetic lyrics like very few can, and he was a warrior and
And his fans
They will beat your ass or shoot you if you say something bad about their Pac!!!
I was eighteen when he was killed.
He died when he was only 25, but damn did that kid seem like he lived a hundred years!!
He had gotten shot a couple of years before and survived and went to prison
The stuff of legend, while the world watched.
A bandged head and middle figure in the air, while he sat in a wheelchair.
When he came home, he recorded a bunch of songs
A lot of songs about Death.
That subject that we fear.
Most of these guys don't wanna rap about that.
He brought music to that shit.
That was his secret, talking about Death.
No one wants to hear about it
Try bringing up the subject, and most people will quickly change it.
Like what did you have to eat last night?
Who won the damned baseball game?
Anything to get their mind off
That Death thing